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A misstep into the spiral of negativity

Posted on 06-10-2015

One of the nasty side effects of bi-polar disorder is the fact that you can get very easily depressed in 5 minutes.
Imagine a spiral; the further you are the more depressed you are. I have the feeling that I just fell a kilometer in it.

So I was on a date today. I liked it, really, but I should’ve kissed her, but I didn’t. I really thought she wanted it as well, but then I thought; well maybe she doesn’t want it and it would mean the end of whatever relationship and I don’t like saying goodbye.

This is just awful. You know that everything went OK, but your mind refuses to see that it actually was OK, instead it just wants to see everything that was not right. Maybe I should’ve said this, or maybe I shouldn’t have said that, wait I really shouldn’t have said that, maybe she doesn’t like me because I said that.

I know that it is a really weird thought and I may not be realistic at all, but that is just what I’m thinking now.

A very depressing time is lurking around the corner.

Here, listen to this:

Okay, bye.

A nice song

Posted on 29-09-2015

Hey everyone,

Long time no see, I’m very busy at the moment.
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Something bad is going to happen

Posted on 14-09-2015

Hey guys,

Fun-fact: Cows have best friends.

I have no idea what to do with that fact, but it seems to be true.
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So this is happiness

Posted on 04-09-2015

Hello everyone,

Fun-fact: Cuddling releases natural painkillers.

Well there was a lot of cuddling yesterday.

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Almost a meltdown

Posted on 26-08-2015

Hey guys,

Fun-fact: Panic attacks can occur both expectedly or suddenly.

This has been a really, really, really weird day. On a normal day, I don’t think, I just do. Today was different, I was thinking the whole time with a frown on my face. Read more »

Enthusiasm funnel

Posted on 25-08-2015

Hey guys,

First of all, I wrote this at night because I couldn’t sleep. I wrote it with one hand on my phone while feeling sad and angry at the same time. So I’m sorry for typos.

Fun-fact: Pigs can experience depression.

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When I go to bed

Posted on 21-08-2015

Hey guys,

Here I am again!

Fun-fact: Humans spend a third of their life sleeping. That’s about 30 years.

Well some people like to sleep, but some people don’t. Like me. I hate it. If I didn’t had to, I wouldn’t. Why do I hate it, you’re asking? Well, first of all: It’s a waste of time. I mean, read the fun-fact. 30 years of your life! But that isn’t the main reason.
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Nice TV shows

Posted on 11-08-2015


Fun-fact: Superman is hidden in every episode of “Seinfield”.

I don’t watch Seinfield myself, but I do watch some other great shows.
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I’m not a relationship person

Posted on 09-08-2015


Fun-fact: When two lovers gaze at each others’ eyes, their heart rates synchronize.

I don’t know if you read yesterdays post (this one). But if you did, you do know a lot about me that a lot of people don’t.
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Asperger in combination with bipolar

Posted on 08-08-2015


Fun-fact: The usual age of onset of bipolar is late teens to early twenties.

And I think I have it… In combination with a bipolar disorder. I did the tests.. It both came out very high. Does it make me sad? Nope, I already am sad.
It’s funny. One moment, you think that you’re okay, or even very okay, the next moment you feel like shit. Just because of 1 little thought that slipped into your head. It’s kind of scary.
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Posted on 07-08-2015

Fun-fact: Enough sunlight reaches the earth’s surface each minute to satisfy the world’s energy demands for an entire year.
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My current mood

Posted on 06-08-2015


Fun-fact: Forcing yourself to smile can boost your mood.

Well, it doesn’t look like that’s helping at all at the moment… I’m kind of sad.
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Posted on 06-08-2015


Fun-fact: Experience of fear may be influenced by social norms and values, fear is an innate response. It is fundamental to the biogical makeup of animals.

Today I want to talk about xaireaphobia. It is the fear of saying goodbye, I don’t know if it is the real name for this disorder but it’s the only thing that I could find.
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A special person

Posted on 04-08-2015

Hey guys,

Fun-fact: It only takes up to 4 minutes to decide whether you like someone or not.

Previous weekend I went volunteering for some company for the first time, we went to a festival to work there. It was my first festival ever too and I was helping the whole weekend.

“Why?”, you’re asking? Well, I don’t have that much friends actually (more on that later)… It was actually very accidental that I got invited really.
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Nice song

Posted on 04-08-2015

Hi guys :3

Fun-fact: You don’t like the original version of a song because it’s better. You like it because it’s the one you heard first.

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Forgetting things

Posted on 04-08-2015

Fun-fact: Your long-term memory shuts down during sleep.

Don’t you think it’s funny? You see or hear thing but you forget then most of the time within a half hour.

Like, 10 minutes ago, I heard a lot of noise outside. It sounded like a helicopter, so I went outside and looked, but I couldn’t see anything. I thought: “Well, this is probably something that I will forget in less than an hour!”
If I post this, it’ll never be forgotten.
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Hey, I guess my name is Riley

Posted on 04-08-2015

Welcome to my blog.

Fun-fact: You’re now addicted!

What you can expect from me

– I will not tell you my (real) name,, or will I? :3
– I will not tell you my age.
– I will not tell you my sex.
– I will not tell you where I’m from.
– I will discuss some situation with friends, but I will not tell you their personal details. The situations and stories that I’m going to tell soon are real though.
– I will talk to people if they want to.
– I will not care about any copyright information, so sorry if I copied something when I’m not allowed to.
– (Regarding the previous point) I will not post movies, music or that kind of things.
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