When I broke up with my ex, everyone said “there a plenty of other fish in the sea”. Yep, totally true. Deep down inside I knew that I wanted to be with someone.
This person is so freaking perfect, it’s just unbelievable. We have so much in common and we tell each other everything. It’s just a perfect relationship, next to two things.
1: She lives on the other side of the country, travel time: 5 hours
2: She calls me her best friend.
Point 1 is not the problem here, as you already assumed. The problem is the second point. She calls me her best friend… Of course, it’s a privilege to be called a best friend and I think, it’s also very handy for a relationship. But it does bother me.
Sometimes, I think: “Well, there are plenty of other fish in the sea.”, like people said to me. But then, immediately after that I think: “But she’s my fish, she is the fish that I want. I don’t like other fish, no other fish ever told me the things that she did”.
So yeah, that’s some sort of problem right now. I saw her three days ago, after almost four years. It was super freaking amazing, but it also made me realize that I really do like her (more than as a friend). But I also realize that I can’t expect from her to give up her live to move in with me or something…
I really hope that she reads this and says to me how she feels about this, without messing up the friendship that we already have. Because that’s another anxiety; if I lose her, my world collapses. I tell her everything, every single panic attack, every thing that I have to deal with, because I know that she is the only one that is able to help me through it.
So I don’t want to lose my friendship, but I also want something more than just being friends because, you know, you are my special fish.
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